Is getting thru this alone. Although we are still together I’ve never felt so empty or alone. It’s hard to see you hurt and so distant. I can’t cry anymore than i already have. I can’t keep pushing and forcing things to “go back to normal.” Reality is….I understand that things will never be the same ever again. I I understand that WE will never be what once was. I know that you will never love me the way you did. I can’t bare to see you happy with another person, but it’s even harder to see you unhappy with me. I’m on borrowed time. I know that it’s just a matter of time. I know that everything keeps replaying in you head. I know what you’re thinking when you’re quiet. I know what you’re thinking when you look at me. You trusted me and I deceived you. I’m sorry that this happened to us.. I’m sorry.
That I only find comfort in food and alcohol. My life is in shambles… I’m screaming on the inside, but on the outside I’m just as stoic.